I suggest you to write and keep a diary. There might be no other way or opportunity for you to know how much you've grown, or not. To compare your current narrative to how you described yourself and your life in the past. To see how the vocabulary and words of preference have changed, to realize that you have an underlying subject across many years, geographies and people.  To talk to you in the past and tell yourself that everything will be fine, that those things for which worried you so much are over, or resolved, or you don't care anymore. You might be also able to talk to you in the future and remind yourself that you are there by choice, and that like in the past, everything will be all right. Start now. Write as often as you want.  But write. Keep some memory. Document. Utter. Attest.  The lines you write will be more reveling over the years than any photograph you've taken.  I have a feeling that lately there is very little space for reflection. To stop and wonder. The immediate has taken over, and the deep self questioning has become a thing that people used to do. It is boring. Not for me and I hope I'm wrong.